Monday 27 February 2023

Milestones

So infrequent has it been since I’ve posted, it's as if Corona had hit this blog! But we all know the tech world is safe from this virus… or is it?  With the advent of the metaverse and AI taking on new dimension, we may soon have a virtual outbreak!

In short, ill I’ll say it like every company’s recorded message, “due the recent outbreak we apologize for the delay (or my in our case a lack of blog posts recently) please hold while we answer your call! 

Three big events/occurrences in 2022, the first and most devasting was the death of my father. The backbone to any persons life. A part of you never really is the same again. You only realise this once the person is gone from your life and words cant describe the emotions and feelings that a person goes through. You can never really prepare for a close ones death and you'd always live with some sort of regret, the should've, could've and would’ve. But faith teaches you to cope with deaths and the words we utter are ‘To Allah we belong and to Him we return’. Such profound words give solace to a heart who knows that eternally, it was never yours to have and it has returned back to its owner. Coupled with this and the longing to meet a person again and the belief you will ultimately do so in the hereafter gives an unimaginable sense of ease.

I wrote a short piece on the life of my dad which you can read here. Friends and family also raised some charity in honour of my dad. A well and a Mosque in Uganda should be nearing completion and Ill post pictures as soon as they are available.

The other two important events in my life, ill post in due course (hopefully not next year) and I’m sure you’ll find them interesting!

Milestones in life, live and learn from them. 

Thursday 2 December 2021

Refugee Camp Aid Deployment


Just like you, I have been exposed to the news, articles, adverts, video reels and even some documentaries highlighting the plight of those materialistically less fortunate than us. You have most likely attended a fundraiser event of some sort, be it a white-collar boxing event or a lavish evening dinner.  So, to some degree, we can’t help but become desensitised to the influx of causes people encourage us to support. Receiving updates via WhatsApp, Instagram, Snap chat, Telegram, email and Facebook, whilst simultaneously using those platforms to interact with friends and family, can lead us to ‘prioritise’ what we decide to read. Already this article is too long for some, and majority of readers will not have even got to this point in the article. The reason I have chosen to use a written medium over other forms of mediums, is to allow you to reflect on what I am trying to convey. I accept I am not the best of writers, but I can only hope that the case studies below can portray some of what my fellow travellers and I felt whilst visiting the refugee camps in Lebanon. 


Case study 1 – Biqaa Valley 

This was to be our first visit to a refugee camp to distribute food, winter packs, visit individual tents and provide monetary support where possible. Eighteen of us were split into 2 groups of 9 and given several cases to visit. 

As we entered our first tent, there was a tension in the air, an unease, a slight trepidation, a feeling that led us all to feel uncomfortable, except our trusted translator Adil. We all sat around the tent and Adil asked Umm Mohammed if we could record our encounter. She declined, but I could see it took a lot from her to decline. With her youngest child struggling in her arms and close to 13 people now entering her tent, she had to muster all her courage to answer our questions. Adil tried to allay her concerns, but she repeatedly refused. At one point, I asked Adil to stop asking her as she was growing increasingly uncomfortable. I personally have always felt a slight unease at having to record someone whilst they are at their lowest, but society today dictates we need to see suffering before we part with our hard-earned cash. 

Nevertheless, Adil began to ask her about her situation, when did she arrive at the camp? – 7 years ago, how many children does she have? – she initially answered 6 but after asking their ages we realised she has in fact 7 children. It was clearly the anxiety and the stressful nature of this situation had led her to make such a simple mistake. We asked about her husband – he had left several months ago, last she had heard he was in Libya trying to secure a job so he could send money back to his family. She hadn’t heard from him for approximately 6 months. Adil then began to ask about her financial situation, her debt, how she pays for the electricity bill, the rent (yes, the rent for the tent!) and essentials. She responded meekly that she was trying her best and wherever possible she took loans from people to get by. The local grocer has allowed her to take items on tab, but he had recently asked for payment as she was going into her fourth month of no payment. She began to speak about her children’s health, her 15-year-old daughter needed spectacles and was suffering from growth issues. She had taken her to see the doctor who said she required growth hormones which would cost thousands of dollars. Her young son had stopped attending school and was trying to find work to support his family. As her story unfolded, we felt her pain, we witnessed her struggle and most of all, I believe we all felt a sense of responsibility towards her. One by one each member of our team began to cover their face, hiding their tears. At one point, someone asked Adil to ask her what the family ate yesterday, her response – one fried potato - it rendered the tent silent. I cannot find the words to describe how each one of us felt, but it was a moment that would be recounted several times later during evening reflections and conversations. 

At this point the tent fostered a feeling of hopelessness. You begin to think how has this family survived for the last 7 years? Where have we all been to support them? 

Our guide summarised the situation and then asked how we would like to help? Everyone began to contribute; one person said we need to clear her debt, another said we must set her up for a few months, someone else asked about schooling for her children, whilst someone mentioned the need for medical care for her daughter. 


This is where your emotions move from a state of demoralisation and dejection, to positivity and support. To repay her debt, schooling for her children, rent, electricity, essentials, and some extra money that would see her through the year, we came up with a total of $3000. My initial thoughts were, is that all she needs for the entire year?! 


We all contributed and put the money into one envelope and asked Adil to explain in detail what we were giving the money for and who it was from. In an instance, her face bloomed with relief; an image that will stay with me forever. From your support, we gave the less fortunate some relief. For the next year at least, she will not have to survive on one potato for the night. Her children will return to school and her 15-year-old daughter will be able to see again. 

You may not have been there in the tent with us or boarded the plane to Lebanon, but your donations made this possible. 


From the One Ummah team, a heartfelt thank you

Friday 6 March 2020

The Breakup (Shikwa) - Riz Ahmed



The Breakup (Shikwa) --- Britain’s broken up with me We had our ups But now it’s broken down Lemme break down the whole fuckery Fuck buddies turned toxic Intertwined now we got kids Built her up she left me broke Cant believe I let her fuck with me I was a mogul had the bling and the girls Grit and the pearls My stash was a quarter of the cash in the world Then this stray pale chick came to trade I laid with her, made me pay she straight slithered And then stayed I couldn’t kick her out She saw I was at war with myself And I’m a fool Couldn’t decide who I was So easy to divide and rule Had me locked down Beat me red and blue til I knew Right was white and not brown When they make you hate yourself You hand over your crown She moved in I was a guest Unwanted in my own house Stole my shit, broke my dick, starved me scarred me, She got paid off my back still her piggy bank charged me Then she had beef with some German next man Went to war for her twice, lost my left hand Only then I emptied all her shit out the bed stand Threw her out, but she carved me in half, a part of me’s still dead man She was gone though Thought I was finally free Try get back on my feet My phone flash and I see she keeps calling Answer the phone she keeps bawling Says now’s she’s broke and the way she’s living is appalling She needs building up, restoring Told me her soldiers have all fallen Asked rush like the wind bringing the warmth in a sob story and I bought it The truth is I looked up to her and needed soothing And thought if she accepted me my worth would be proven So I moved in - yea Had a few kids - yea A future of mixed cultures but I was so fucking stupid Didn’t stop to think how badly it would just confuse them Daddy, why does mum hate me, she looks and says “who’s this?” Came home one day she changed the locks My brown and white sepia sapna gone to pot Says she blames me for how lately she feels lost How she ain’t what she was and our kids don’t show no love So now she’s taking back control And she wants me to fuck off Told the feds I’m dangerous insane and trying kill her off Had no time to explain to them the snipers took their shots I’m heartbroken and I’m homeless, trying to work out who I was Before I was told I’m only good for sweat and blood and sweat and cock Britannia trying to thrown me out Brittney baby please stop I thought we had a special thing I know that we can make it up Brittney if you break up with me then I might just break up This will either be the end of the or be the wake up Brittania breaking up with me, this the breakup


Tuesday 20 August 2019

Herd

Never was part of the herd
Preferring only his voice to be heard

Never was in the class a nerd
Imagination free as a bird

Never chased fame and a glorified name
Never was part of that game

Grafting always on a different scene
Hear about him the unseen

Vices and crises obstacles to the path
In the depth of the nights
Turn to Him in tears, beads and pray




Thursday 11 April 2019

Brexit Black Hole

So the Brexit saga continues. What a pertinent time the black hole was pictured! As it looks exactly like Brexit, unknown. Everything is up in the air. And the conspiracy theorist that I am, why is this all seeming so oddly Un-British. An empire in disarray and in chaos, is this what it has come to after all the past glory? or is there another twist to this tale. Wish there was someone well informed that could enlighten me. Anyway to the funnier side of things. Got a cool e mail from Revolut below,(which if you haven't heard of is a brilliant virtual bank  good for travelers and money savers like me) about this whole Brexit madness.


You're probably Reesly sick of hearing about Brexit by now. We understand. It's all very Merkely and confusing.

We're sorry to Boris you with more Brexit stuff, but please don't send this email to your Juncker folder. We have an important message you May want to hear.

For now, all our politicians have stopped having a Barnier about what deal to sign. This is good news. It means that you'll stay as part of our UK entity for the foreseeable future, and that you don’t need to do anything on your side for now. There's a Chancellor this will change in the future, but we will keep you up to date as developments continue.

Lovely play with words! I reckon you'll only understand this if you're well informed!

Sunday 10 February 2019

Fuel the Self



One of the best phrases I heard the other day from someone addressing Narcissism.
‘Visibility doesn't equal worth’

In an age where we are constantly fed the Latin saying of 'Let he who shouts the loudest be heard first' and me, myself and I and think about yourself first, I think there's a pertinent story about an award winning farmer and the key to success.

A newspaper reporter interviewed a farmer who grew Award-Winning Maize. He entered his maize in the Agricultural Show each year.

It was revealed that the farmer shared his seed with his neighbours.
Amazed, the reporter asked, _*“How can you afford to share your best seed with your neighbours when they are entering their maize into the competition with yours each year?”*_
The farmer smiled knowingly and explained, ​ *_“The wind picks up pollen from the ripening maize and swirls it from field to field.​ If my neighbours grow inferior maize, Cross-Pollination will steadily degrade the quality of my maize. If I am to grow good maize, I must help my neighbours grow a good crop."_*
So it is with our lives. Those who want to live meaningfully and well, must help enrich the lives of others, for the value of a life, is measured by the lives it touches.
Those who choose to be happy, must help others find happiness, for the welfare of each is bound up with the welfare of all.
Call it power of collectivity
Call it a principle of success.
Call it a law of life.
The fact remains, none of us truly wins, until we all win.
Just as the Prophet (ص) said, *_"You cannot be a true believer untill you like for your brother what you like for yourself."_*
Know this secret as you grow!
In life, when you help the people around you to be good, you surely become the better too.
Live in the shadows and be the grey man, the motto in life. :)

Saturday 29 December 2018

Perfection

‘Have you never considered getting married, Mullah?’
‘I have,’ replied Nasrudin. ‘In my youth, I resolved to find the perfect woman. I crossed the desert and reached Damascus, and I met a lovely, very spiritual woman, but she knew nothing of the world. I continued my journey and went to Isfahan; there I met a woman who knew both the spiritual and the material world, but she was not pretty. Then I decided to go to Cairo, where I dined in the house of a beautiful woman, who was both religious and a connoisseur of material reality.’
‘Why didn’t you marry her, then?’
‘Alas, my friend, she was looking for the perfect man.’
An excerpt from the book The Perfect Woman by Paulo Coelho